On making life changing decision

Life, as the saying goes, is the sum of all your choices, but have you ever thought about just how many decisions you make in a single day? (I've even lost count of the ones I made before going to work) Most decisions are pretty mundane - hmmm, Pashmina or silk? high heels or flats? oat or yogurt? - but some are profound and life-challenging.

Most of my major decisions in life involved both my parents. They've helped me tremedously during those confuse time of my life. Which school, which university, which country, which career, which husband. I swear. Even my husband was choosen by my mother when I had a few on my list. Though of course I've kept it subtle but I think Fairuz knew about it back then. He too agree that having a few on the list is not wrong, it's your life and you have rights.

When Fairuz finished his Master degree here in London, he's to report immedidately to his supposed employer. Back then of course he was on scholarship by the biggest oil company in Malaysia. But since Fairuz and I got married just 2 month after his graduation, we wanted to stay together but can't. It was a dilema. But good thing was he got an offer , even during the credit crunch, to do a professional training with oil and gas company here. Which by the way, if he were to come back, would be an asset to the company.

Fairuz adored that he's going to work there someday and dreamed of a contribution to the country. But too bad the company was too proud for a negotiation deal. And something along the line of "You're not gonna get work anywhere if you don't work with us!" and "you're working with us not your wife!" that made Fairuz to jumped into the huge unknown.

He left them.

We would have thought huge company means huge professionalism, respect and integrity. Fairuz adore the fact of working in Malaysia (of course we do, it's where our heart is and family) but he just couldn't tolerate unprofessional act and lack of respect to employee by employer. So now he is left with almost a million dollar debt due to the breach of contract and now in long painful negotiations of paying it bits by bits.

Me : Are you regretting your decision?
Fairuz : Of course not. Not in a million years.We only live once and its the best decision I've made.
Me : But because of me and this you're in a huge debt.
Fairuz: Because of you too I'm doing something even better. Money is still just money. The company is not the one who decides our fate. Allah s.w.t is and He's with us. He's the one who gave us the blessing. .As long as our parents is okay with it. Insya'Allah, anywhere in this world if we work hard enough and pray to Allah we'll be okay. I choose what makes me happier.

See. Nobody's life is always smooth. There's up and down. And the decision we've made sometimes full of uncertainty, risk and dark tunnel. But cast that fear away. Stand up straight ,dust yourself off, work hard and always always tawakkal to Allah s.w.t after. Believe and pray to Allah for his guidance. Insya'Allah

"And He provides for him from (sources) he never could imagine. And if any one puts his trust in Allah, sufficient is (Allah) for him. For Allah will surely accomplish his purpose: verily, for all things has Allah appointed a due proportion. (Ath-thalaq, 65:3)"

There'll be a rainbow after every storm.

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